Friday, October 11, 2002

Amazingly, it's worse than I thought it was. He's in more debt than I know... He's in more debt than even he knows, I think. My dad and he got into a fist fight this morning. My dad is a pacifist. He would spank us when we were young if and only if we really deserved it, but he never hit one of us. My brother is a very laid back person.... I can't imagine either of them ever fighting anyone, much less each other! This is breaking our hearts. I don't know what to do.

Tuesday, October 08, 2002

My brother is moving back home. "That's nice," you may be thinking... Think again!
Don't get me wrong. I love my brother! In fact, he was always my hero growing up. He was my first friend. He is hugely important to me.
However, I am not happy that he is moving back in. He is 23, and trying very hard to ruin his life. He is up to his ears in bills that he is not paying, and he comes in drunk every Saturday night. The only reason he goes to church is because he owes my dad money, and part of the agreement of the loan was that he had to go to church until he paid it back. (Now don't go thinking I'm about to shove the Bible down your throats...I'm not! I do, however, feel that church provides a strong moral basis in life.)
If he and my parents are in the same room, there is much commotion. They just can't seem to not argue... I guess because he seems to want to ruin his life and they don't want him to.
My home is going to become stressful again. I hate that.

Monday, October 07, 2002

Life. What an interesting thing, eh? Mine is quite blessed, I must admit. It is not, however, perfect by any stretch of the imagination.
This is my place to bare my soul. This is my place to let go and be myself. Here I will cleanse my conscience and my soul of all the filth that accumulates there. Here is where I let my hair down.
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